I Am There

I Am There

I come from there and remember,
I was born like everyone is born, I have a mother
and a house with many windows,
I have brothers, friends and a prison.
I have a wave that sea-gulls snatched away.
I have a view of my own and an extra blade of grass.
I have a moon past the peak of words.
I have the godsent food of birds and an olive tree beyond the kent of time.
I have traversed the land before swords turned bodies into banquets.
I come from there, I return the sky to its mother when for its mother the
sky cries, and I weep for a returning cloud to know me.
I have learned the words of blood-stained courts in order to break the rules.
I have learned and dismantled all the words to construct a single one:
Home

By Mahmoud Darwish

From the water, far off I am.

I am so far from home. Surrounded by dirt, drama queens, and ass hats. I failed myself and traded momentum for alliance with liars. I failed myself and lost track of my one true objective. Now I'm paid by the toil of the evil. Entangled with the tendrils of the foundation-less. Stuck in a humid sea of dirt and baking. Working in the zombie core of a dead body draped in man made covering, long ago stained and spotted.

You liars, having no hindsight, lack foresight, and judge from a place of ignorance!

These local hills thick with the stench of proud gainsayers.

Now, my only fight is me. And an angry one it is, questioning my search for just one set of arms. Just one. And just time to time. For missing something has a way of seeking out things which aren't always needed. Embrace without entanglement. Care without commitment. Intimacy without the promise of tomorrow. All the other moments of my late summer strafing the corners of quest and objective, flavored liberally with pleasant sonic disturbance, air time, and velocity.

But even in that is the beginning of the end. The potential of leaving controllled flight. For NOBODY is honest, even in something requiring so little. And no sensitive heart is capable of giving love without wanting to give more love.